"Make it make sense. Carefree is cool, but not at my expense."
Sunday, Aug. 23, 2020 - 10:57 p.m.
Before I forget the thoughts (most have been forgotten already), wanted to note that the US has a nomination for its first "black" female vice president! What's crazy is that even after Obama was nominated and elected president, it's almost like the thought of a black female VP was still too far off. And yet...
The racial unrest in the country is so crazy in so many ways. We have a nomination for a black female VP *because of* the unrest. Our country is at a point where having a black female VP was almost a necessity to even give the democratic ticket a chance. And that is IN SPITE OF a narcissist racist president in power who obviously doesn't give a F about the country or the people. Like, he really could care less. His only concern is "winning". He would be just as happy winning at the casino as he would be being re-elected.
Chyle. I'm so disgusted with the people in this country, I don't know what to do. And don't even have the energy to go through the thoughts on that.
In recent happenings, I have been following money-minded entrepreneurs on twitter. Trying to collect as much information as I can so I can start figuring out what I want to do with my life. Life is good. I finally feel....settled. It's a combination of being able to focus only on myself, having my home, starting to feel comfortable financially and overall, a peaceful life.
All that to say, one woman sells a resume revamp. I'd been wanting it but her prices are outrageous. Well, through a sequence of events, I found her actual resume on linkedin on Saturday. Sat right here on my couch and redid my resume. And I'm so proud of it. Immediately applied for several positions with all kindsa companies all over the country. LOL Like, just went ahead and applied. Immediately. LOL I'm committing to applying for two jobs a week, going forward.
On a call earlier this week, it was announced that a woman who didn't even work in my industry got a huge job in my industry. I recalled that I got my industry certification BEFORE HER last year. I wondered why she was going for it in the first place. Anyway, I have worked with her and she is not overly spectacular. I also know her exposure to the job opportunity was due to proximity. Nevertheless, as soon as I heard she got that job, had to ask myself what am I doing? I'm sitting around, being lazy and complacent and not happy when I could be doing MORE.
So now, I got my revamped resume - gives me a little more confidence. I've been working, in general, on my confidence and acknowledging my greatness, so I'm taking that wind with me too. I am ready for my next career move, which will be bigger and better than anything I've experienced thus far. I'm going to get a role with greater impact, flexibility, independence and higher pay.
(Working through feeling guilty for making more than I do now, which is an amount I believe is more than anyone in my family has ever made. This is the blessing God has for me, so I cannot be walking around, feeling guilty about it. And I will not and do not believe it is the height of what God has for me, either. God is going to BLOW MY MIND, salary-wise. I'm going to come back and laugh at this one day because the amount is going to be even more than I could have ever imagined.)
(Again, finally starting to feel comfortable and "secure", financially.)
Also in recent happenings, my family is on the precipice of implosion. Centers around my Aunt "Bob". She has always been the problem. Always. A lot of mental issues there. Mental issues which have been passed to two of her three daughters. Part of it is coming to a head in an ugly way. I hate that it's happening but there was no other way for things to go, for various reasons. Mainly because people prefer avoidance over confrontation. Things don't go away, they just fester.
All of this means my aunt, her husband and youngest adult daughter will have to find somewhere to live. That place is not going to be here. I felt guilty about that earlier on but my resolve against them living here gets stronger everyday. They are a toxic group and I have too much peace in my life - for what feels like the first time, ever, at that - for me to introduce insanity into my home. I'm not going to do it. I can't afford to. I cannot afford to lose my peace of mind. Nope. So I'm just praying for peace and restoration in my family. It's all I can do.
Ain't nothing much else going on in my world these days. I'm happy. I'm at peace. I'm living through a pandemic, taking it day by day. All my needs and wants are met. My bills are all paid. Life is good.