"So show me why you're strong. Ignore everybody else. We're alone now."
Sunday, Dec. 14, 2014 - 7:11 p.m.
In 2015, I want to write more here. I need a better record of my life. Social media is social media but it only says so much....because I only tell so much.
I need to come back here and put down my thoughts and feelings. My brain has been on 10 for a while. The past long while is a blur. I want details to look back on. So I want to come back here and write about my little inconsequential day-to-day details.
Speaking of 2015......
I have no goals in place for next year. And that doesn't sit right with me. I feel like I need to accomplish something next year. So over this coming week, I am challenging myself to come up with at least 5 goals to accomplish.
One is already a given - weight loss. I have played with this issue for far too long. It is now at the critical point where it MUST be addressed. Even though I know the health implications, I still haven't been motivated enough to take action. But now? Now. The time is now. And not just because 2015 is here. But because I MUST. My health is at risk and I can't allow that to be compromised. So weight is one issue.
That leaves at least four more to go. Although I am proud of my service the past few years, I would like to *accomplish* something - to feel like I have *achieved* something - in the coming year. There's nothing wrong with that. I run around all the time and feel like I'm doing nothing. At least my setting and achieving goals, I will feel like I have accomplished something with the time and energy I'm expending.
I was about to say that I'm looking forward to not having any "romantic" dealings with anyone in 2015. But that won't solve anything. I typically claim that I will be alone and celibate and BY MYSELF in the new year. Then I find myself in whatever carried over from the year before. I am going into 2015 prepared to embrace any POSITIVE situations that present themselves. I am releasing "carryover material", committing to not revisit situations that I abandoned for good doggone reason. I'm worth more and life is too short to waste time on dead-end isht.
In 2015, I'm anticipating learning how to be present and at peace in my life. I want to be able to remember the days. I am happy about the possibilities of 2015. Bring it on, new year!!!