"I long to tell you that I'm always thinking of you? I'm always thinking of you...but I can't find the right words to say..."
Sunday, Jul. 08, 2007 - 9:06 p.m.
I want to write but I feel like I. ain't. got. shit. to. say. but the same. ol'. shit. I. always. say.
Damn!
I just cannot get a hold of my damn mind and get my shit together and do what the hell I need to damn do.
The only thing I can focus on is not missing my flight on Thursday night. NC, here I come. I'm even considering turning off my cellphone for those 6 days. I don't need to talk to anybody but Tae and her dog, Maxie-Waxie, and that's only because they live where I'll be sleeping.
But for real, I am sitting on my hands on SO many different issues and situations instead of manning up and handling things. I just need to attack the things that are happening and about to happen in my life just so I can feel like I have a modicum of control over my life. Right now, I don't feel like being concerned with what I need to be thinking about so I will just avoid my issues until I can clear my head and think and make plans when I get to NC.
In other news, I went and visited Crystal and her new baby Friday night. Lord, I cannot be a parent right now!!! Having a child is too much work!!! And I am too squeamish for the navel falling off and all that. Ugh!! I taste some bile at the thought!! I need some water!!!