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"I long to tell you that I'm always thinking of you? I'm always thinking of you...but I can't find the right words to say..."

Sunday, Jul. 08, 2007 - 9:06 p.m.

I want to write but I feel like I. ain't. got. shit. to. say. but the same. ol'. shit. I. always. say.

Damn!

I just cannot get a hold of my damn mind and get my shit together and do what the hell I need to damn do.

The only thing I can focus on is not missing my flight on Thursday night. NC, here I come. I'm even considering turning off my cellphone for those 6 days. I don't need to talk to anybody but Tae and her dog, Maxie-Waxie, and that's only because they live where I'll be sleeping.

But for real, I am sitting on my hands on SO many different issues and situations instead of manning up and handling things. I just need to attack the things that are happening and about to happen in my life just so I can feel like I have a modicum of control over my life. Right now, I don't feel like being concerned with what I need to be thinking about so I will just avoid my issues until I can clear my head and think and make plans when I get to NC.

In other news, I went and visited Crystal and her new baby Friday night. Lord, I cannot be a parent right now!!! Having a child is too much work!!! And I am too squeamish for the navel falling off and all that. Ugh!! I taste some bile at the thought!! I need some water!!!

the last - the next

The Trees Today - The Trees I've Seent. - Diaryland.


The Last 5 Trees
"Until the end of time, I'll be there for you. You are my heart and mind. I truly adore you." - Sunday, Oct. 30, 2016
"Don't touch what's there...when it's the feelings I wear..." - Saturday, Oct. 08, 2016
"I will enter his gates with thanksgiving in my heart, I will enter his courts with praise." - Friday, Oct. 07, 2016
"I tried to run it away. Thought then my head'd be feeling clearer...." - Tuesday, Oct. 04, 2016
"Boy, your money and my money? Ain't the same damn kind. I can live your life and my life AT THE SAME DAMN TIME!" - Sunday, Oct. 02, 2016