"I slipped...Slipped on an iceberg...So cold...You turned so cold..."
2006-10-03 - 4:16 p.m.
I be slippin'.
I be forgettin' how much my heart hurt when I was in that situation with Jerramy.
How much that shit stung when I felt like I couldn't get a grip on HIS damn feelings.
How I could be in a room full of people and only be thinking about him.
How I was sitting in the emergency room where my cousin was being held, thinking about what HE had just said to me.
I slip like this when I'm feelin' frisky and thinkin' about which boy toy to call.
So I'm glad I thought about writing about it before I picked up the damn phone.
'Cause dialin' that number woulda been something I woulda wished I hadn't done in the end.
I just can't believe how out of love with love I am. It's just mind-boggling to me. And it makes me nervous...'cause damn, do I really believe I can make it through this life without romantic love?
I can almost see it happening, even though I wouldn't want to end up that way.
It's just real scary to me.