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"Is it possible for you to see that maybe you and I could be?"

2005-01-19 - 1:13 p.m.

Guess what? Today's my birthday.

Yep, sure is. And my fam is the greatest. I really love and appreciate them all. For real.

So I did some early celebrating... Wow. I have NEVER been so drunk before in my life and I will NEVER be so drunk again in the future. Terrible. I had two Watermelon Martinis, a double shot of Tequila (the bartender's fault), a Tequila Sunrise and a Blue Long Island Iced Tea.

In a few words, I got *ahem* escorted (on the low, by security - yes, security) out the club after I threw up all over the floor and this guy I had just met, was completely passed out on the way to D's house, threw up in a bag in D's house, threw up on the floor of D's bedroom and peed her bed. Yes I did! I peed the damn bed!

If I were alone in my drunkenness, I'd be real embarrassed right about now. But D was also pissy drunk. So drunk, she was dancin' all on me and she know we don't do that. It's LOL but it's also cray-zay! Never again, I say!

But BIG shout-out to Gilles for stickin' with a female and not taking advantage of the situation which he completely could have even though he didn't know me or my name. I really appreciate that.

I wonder if I mentioned in a previous entry that I cut Jerramy and David off completely. I think I probably said I was on the way to doing that. But for real. David is not even an effort. His number got deleted and I haven't looked back. I'm really proud of the way I handled that situation too. I told him exactly what I was going to do and why I was doing it.

Jerramy. I haven't told him. He knows why and he knows what's happening. I can't do it anymore. My heart is tired of him and his antics. My mind is so over it.

Over the weekend in Orlando, of course J got upset about everything and had a sour mood. Usually, I'd chase after her. This time, I told her what was up and I'm leaving it alone. Like I said, I'll extend myself for the needy and my family only this year. Everybody else, I just don't have the energy.

But today will tell me alot if she doesn't call. And that's fine if she doesn't. Her decision. Friendships are really important to me but I just can't sit back and allow people to treat me any kind of way. Really, I can't. Especially when I have gone out of my way for her on many an occassion without being recognized for that and the one time I asked her to do something for me recently, she ended up upset about it. She's always getting upset.

This year, I'm just being selfish and it's feeling good, feeling great.

One friendship I'm extra happy about is me and my best friend Tae. We've been friends since the 7th grade which translates to over 12 years of friendship. I got to see her in Orlando (which was part of the reason J was upset...LOL) and I was sad to leave.

I want to start a photoblog since I actually took more than three pictures over the weekend. This is gonna be my year of pictures.

So yeah.

I am 24 years old.

What have I accomplished? A lot, I feel. I worked so hard when I was younger (I'm talkin' like I'm in my 30's and 40's) so coasting these past two years hasn't been so bad. It's just such an accomplishment to me to not have been pregnant or have had a child already. There's so much I'm doing and know that I can do because I basically have no responsibilities such as a child. I'm payin' bills yes, but at least I ain't strugglin' or being forced to set my dreams aside for my child (which I would happily do).

I just feel good. I woke up and realized that I need to be doing so much more but for real, I'm very satisfied with where I stand today.

So life is good. What's next? Back to the weight-loss goals. 35 pounds still. Bally's is calling my name. I hear them and I'm on the way.

"I've, I've found a new love. I've found a new, found a new love. I've finally found it in God."

the last - the next

The Trees Today - The Trees I've Seent. - Diaryland.


The Last 5 Trees
"Until the end of time, I'll be there for you. You are my heart and mind. I truly adore you." - Sunday, Oct. 30, 2016
"Don't touch what's there...when it's the feelings I wear..." - Saturday, Oct. 08, 2016
"I will enter his gates with thanksgiving in my heart, I will enter his courts with praise." - Friday, Oct. 07, 2016
"I tried to run it away. Thought then my head'd be feeling clearer...." - Tuesday, Oct. 04, 2016
"Boy, your money and my money? Ain't the same damn kind. I can live your life and my life AT THE SAME DAMN TIME!" - Sunday, Oct. 02, 2016