2004-03-17 - 11:01 a.m.

Those kids, Love Jones Revived and J's procrastination all make me a TIYUHD GYAL!

I tell ya! LOL.

At least I'm not going upstate this weekend to go see Miss Pooh like I was planning to. That's some stress off my mind...and some more time to get things done.

Damn-near two months after I purchased my car and I have yet to WASH it! Ugh! It's disgusting. Then driving around with a cassette player in there! Oh my goodness! Where's my Brandy (Full Moon) when I need it?! (At home in the pile...)

Let's see how Sunday goes. Hopefully, it's agreeable to me going up to Best Buy to get all my car business handled.

Hey! It's only Wednesday! What the hee-hell am I doing talking about Sunday already?! LOL!

Last night was fun though. The vibe was WILD. I don't know what them people was smokin' but everybody was off glass last night. Damn-near too much for me to handle. But I enjoyed myself though. I did.

And then J & Sweet Phil last night. Felt like I was making a porno but it wasn't anything like that. LOL. But the setting and a few other factors... It was fun though. I'm just mad that that whole session had me up 'till 3:00am.

Them babies...boy, they make me so anxious to have kids. But I'm just not ready. But they are so cute! Oh my goodness! And the kids are soooo sweet. Even when they try to act up, their innocence still shines through.

I wasn't able to get up and on the treadmill this morning. I needed as much sleep as I could scrape up after being up damn-near all night last night. I was bothered by the fact that I didn't get on the 'mill and I really am going to try to get on there tonight when I get home after the theatre. I can't break the cycle now. This is a crucial time to build up the habit. So, I gotta get on the 'mill when I get home.

I was just walking into work when I realized that about 50% of my thoughts during the day center around food and what I can and can't eat and my weight - how much I used to weigh and how much I weigh now. It's just such a big issue in my life. I really wish I didn't think about it. I wish I didn't have to think about it.

And even though I'm not dropping pounds like I would like, I do recognize that I am smaller than I've been in a long while. (Especially at times like today when the pants I have on, which used to be tight-to-the-point-of-suffocation are now loosely hanging on me.)

So I take comfort in that.

I ain't got nothin' to talk about. Saw Mario Winans' video. Nice body, baby! What?! LOL. I was like, "Damn!" at the fact that he was sitting in the tub fully dressed. That's some serious depression over a situation right there.

I don't too much like Kanye's new video. I feel the quality could have been much better, what with all the technology out there today. I CRACKED UP when I saw Common at the end though. I don't know what was so funny to me about him being in the video in the role he was playing, but it was funny to me nonetheless.

Hmmm...what else? LOL.

My throat is still bothering me but at least I think it's not a cold. I think it's just irritated. Or at least I hope it's just irritated. My head isn't hurting so that's a good sign. No nausea. Feeling good, not great. But feeling good.

Aiight, I'ma try to go and be productive today.

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